Been 2 days since i last blogged. I wanted to change the template cos i'm getting sick with this template already. Don't feel like doing another template cos i'm really lazy to do so. Well, last saturday went St John HQ as admin personal. Well it's quite fun and this is the starting of what it's to be when i takeover ZQ role as Loyang Corp officer on the 23 June 2004. I would really like to bid a nice goodbye to him and wished him best of luck. Well really nothing significant happens....

Just came back from "The Day After Tomorrow" movie... Really another kickass movie, the special effect is too good. It's a cross-bred between "Independence Day" and "Deep Impact". What to do when it came from the producers of 1998 science-fiction blockbuster. Tomorrow going to Beach Road for my stjohn stuff, so i won't be online one whole day.... SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well it's thursday again. Days and days just past it's like only yesterday i am studying and taking the GCE O Level Examination. Well recently this came to my mind, i felt that i myself never cherished my childhood properly which led me to deprive of certain things that a child loves. I will never say i do not have a great childhood but rather a complete childhood. Anything that a child dreamt of. I wanted to do certain things now but my age is already catching up already. In 2 weeks time, I'm going to leave my teenage years and into a young adult. Well, Manchester United had finalised a deal for Alan Smith as he would be a red devil this coming 2004/2005 season. Alan Smith is a great player but i still stayed skeptical for his signature as he self-proclaimed himself as a all-time leeds fan....groomed as a player to play for Leeds only his on pitch performance will convinced fans like me. And lastly, i planning to watch The Day After Tomorrow, a action fleck about Global Warming that caused catastophere around the world. Just like Deep Impact back in 1997 or 1998.

Well been few days since i last blogged. I actually wanted to change my template again to my former but then do not know what happened, the source code of that template had been taken off the website stating the host recieved too many complaints over it. So i'll be sticking to this at the moment. Also i changed my song to Linkin Park's Numb. They are finally coming to Singapore for concert. Been their fans since 2000 when they came out with their debut full album, Hybrid Theory. In that album, i kept replaying In The End and A Place For My Head. I also got their 2nd album, Meteora as well as remix album, Reanimation. But I'm still considering going to the concert even though I needed to take action fast. I'm still amazed by the sight of that Evo7 last saturday currently. The car's image still stay in my mind. Really hoped that i can drive the car of this Mitsubishi Lancer Evolution series. And also out of boredom, i started playing the old PS game, The Legend of Dragoon. This is the only game i did not complete and it's really a good game even though it's not as much popularized as Final Fantasy games but still one of the best RPG around.

Well yesterday i got a long day for me. Been to my nephew 1st year birthday and he is so cute on that day. After which i went to SAT to get something. I forgot to tell ZQ about this which led me to miss the BFA revision at HQ which he said to be disappointed over this. But i got to count myself lucky yesterday i caught a glimpse of my dream car, Mitsubishi LanEvo at Raffles Place. I was so wide mouthed that time in my cousin Toyota Wish seeing that car rolled by. The sound from the engine was great!!!!!!!!!

Watched Shrek 2 today. It's simply awesome as compared to the first.... And also the graphic had deeply improved too. Although it's had alot of children theme within the movie such as "3 Blind Mice", "Ginger Bread Man", "Red Riding Hood", "Fairy Godmother" etc etc.... but then there is simply NO children in the cinema. Mostly student around my age and some adults too. Well i bought another cd today. It's Slipknot latest and third album, Vol.3(Subliminal Verses). This group is my favourite Heavy Metal band and also the sound changed alot from their previous two. No-more hardcore heavy metal music like Surfacing or People=Shit. Their lyric from the previous 2 are controversial too... like "Fuck it all, Fuck this world, Fuck everything you stand for" and also their new mask looks cool too.....this is their cd cover:



Just now went for a basketball game with Guan Qun and gang... Well they really influenced me of getting back to my bicycle daredevil days... Anyway, past 12midnight already...This is the first time in don't know how many days i managed to stay up this late.... *Laughing Out Loud*

Planning to watch Shrek 2 (not planning determining as i bought the tickets already) tomorrow. I hoped that it is as good as the first. Simply love the theme song for part 1 which is "I'm a Believer" by Smashmouth. Shrek 2 also used Smashmouth song as theme... if i'm not wrong it's called "All Star". I just got the pay from my first night shift job real happy about it especially i endured the gruel working condition in SAT.... Well really looking forward to Euro2004 and i would get up late and support England as i felt that this team matured alot since World Cup 2002. With Beckham back to his old skinhead image. My bet is Sven Goran Eriksson will use the following players as starting 11:

Gk: David James
DR: Gary Neville
DL: Wayne Bridge/Ashley Cole
DC: Sol Campbell
DC: John Terry
MR: David Beckham
ML: Phil Neville
MC: Steven Gerrard
MC: Paul Scholes
ST: Michael Owen
ST: Wayne Roodney

But the opening game, they would be playing against defending Champ, France. Hoped France have another shameful exit again.... As i simply hated the team....

Watched Troy yesterday, it's really one of the most kickass show since Lord of The Rings. It's about the most famous ancient greek story regarding a lengthy war between The Greek and The Trojan before Greek resorted to a cunning method of sending a Wooden Horse where some of their best fighters hid and the rest hid elsewhere that make it look as though Greek had abandoned their invasion of Troy. Brad Pitt character it's really cool as well as Eric Bana. But this is the first time Orlando Bloom took up a "villian" role as in the movie, he caused the outbreak of war by falling in love with Helen, the wife of the brother of The King of Greek. He also killed Archilles (Brad Pitt) as he was shot on his heel which was the most vulnerable spot for the Hero. Well, during the show.... Johnson and gang that is sitting behind me, Wai Kit, Guan Qun, his 2 brothers, Guan Ye and Guan Zhong and Donovan halfway bastard an audience in the cinema. They started laughing when he actually tried to control his sneeze at first before letting go. His sneeze is really funny even i also break out laughing but i tried to control :P... After which we had an "ah beng outing" and they really bastard even more.... Joshua, a guy that i don't quite like during my time in Loyang Sec because of his ah beng attitude but found him quite ok... Still suffering hangovers currently... I do not know when is the next time i will hang out with these guys again and really looking forward to the day when we go out and laugh at retards again... **LOL**

Today, nearby my block....a person committed suicide by leaping off from a height. Well, I'm not sure what is the reason or motive but then i would feel sad for her.... For me, i will not think about taking my own life away even I'm bed-ridden as I feel that killing ownself is like committing a huge crime. My religion too does not permit suicide and would be dealt heavily when i left for the next world or even refused entry to the land of the dead. Tomorrow, I will be joining my buddies, Guan Qun and Wai Kit to watch Troy. I heard that show is very good but i will only know after i watched it. (^_^)V

"See what hurts me the most is you won't admit you was wrong.
Bitch, do ya song. Keep tellin' yourself that you was right.
But how dare you try to make someone that hold such high regards on you.
You selfish bitch, I hope you fuckin' burn in hell for this shit."
Revised from Eminem's Cleaning Out My Closet...

One idiot make my mother sad and cried today. She can't even sleep now as she kept thinking over what this idiot said to her. Such pain especially my mother endured her and carried her in her stomach for 9months and few hours in labour before bring her into this world. Yet, what did she repay her? By calling her bitch and old lady. Since you say you don't like this home. Please go with those frags to Changi Rise in June and go find your own survival needs. She doted you more than I do and wanted to change HP, she will go get for you....Does she give me such "priviledge"? Nope, she even wanted me to give you that N6230 and i used your old 7250 especially using my phone to trade in.... She is your mother and got the rights to know what you do in school and your social life but you claimed that she is intruding your privacy and i am conspiracing with this "old lady".... That website i build for you and why can't i see what you did?? I can make as well can break it for you.... Well if i don't see, your bitchy friends may see it too and thinks bad about this "old lady".... fark you b**ch.... With immediate effect, i declared cold war against you and don't expect the same treatment i or this "old lady" give you in the future b**ch!!!

"I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know."

Well those above are the powerful lyrics from the song that i kept repeating in this blog. Really a nice and beautiful song from the alternative rock group, Hoobastank. This is the first song that let me so into this group and i simply felt that The Reason is their best song. Somemore their lead singer don't look caucasian but instead like those Hawaiian. Look very chinese too like Japanese-American, Mike Shinoda from Linkin Park. Speaking of Linkin Park, I watched the animated video of With You on TV yesterday. Look really "anime" just like the short anime scene in Kill Bill vol.1 about the life of O-Ren Ishii (Lucy Liu). Well watched the grisly clip of Iraqi militant beheading of civilian Nick Berg. I'm really disturbed by those scene after watching it and wanted to send my deepest sympathy to his family over in U.S and hoped they get over his death and continue with life. Last night on MSN, well it was my "wildest" night especially with the Stephanie, Guan Qun and Wai Kit. Stephanie is really crazy and lived up to her self-proclaimed title of "Siao Char Bo".... Guan Qun and Wai Kit, still in their crappy personalities which that is why, it's hard to forget the memories from Secondary School. Such fun days came to an end which a blink of an eye. Well will be start my new life in ITE MacPherson on 5th July and knew 2 secondary school friends already in there already. One of these is Koh Wen Wen. The burger king da jie. She worked in Burger King in Downtown East and i not too sure whether she still worked there currently. And also saw a profile in friendster that makes me wanted to "puke". OMG, Verin Ang have a boyfriend such person got a relationship....That caused Wai Kit to curse at the unfairness of life....LOL....

"I knew from the beginning, but you were a pure baby
When you bite into the bitter truth,
You can’t be discouraged and walk straight
Even though it’s something that leaves, in the rain,
I throb painfully...
I’m lonely as a floating ice.
Give me the thin kiss so I can remember whom I threw away
Even though this is the end, I won’t forget our last kiss
I won’t forget
I won’t forget her kiss
The last kiss we shared together..."

This is something i wrote for someone as i wanted to let go our 8months relationship which ends in March. As i am not interested in coming back together but still be normal friends. Well i just applied another job at Shell Petrol Koisk as attendant. It is definately better then that farking SIA SAT Catering Job. But this i have to be called up for interview instead of going in directly. Hope that this is not another half-hearted job again for me. I downloaded a few anime to watch today which included 2 episodes of Gantz, Monster, Madlax and of course episode 94 of One Piece. Since all these anime are unlicensed, so it can be downloaded without the fear of getting monitored by the authority. :P

For all friends, please stopped using Bittorrent to download copyrighted or licensed stuff as the authority over in the West had started actions against users of Bittorrent too following their semi-success in Kazaa and other P2P software. I just deleted all my movies and stuff which only left with unlicensed anime and those Mp3s that i owned the original cd. If you still using, please stop as you never know you are being monitored..... Well i listened to a song by Blink 182... it's called I Miss You which the chorus is:

"Don't Waste You Time On Me, you're Already a voice inside my head"...

Really a nice song especially since Blink 182 had a break from activity for 2-3 years from 2001 to 2003 which they took up solo project called "Boxcar Racer".... I never heard their side-project before so i do not know how they sound like. It seem that they never downgraded their style of music from All the Small Things to The First Date and to I Miss You... somemore more melodic from their typical punky musical style. I think maybe i going to put this song as music on this board. By the way, i changed my music from the hardcore rapping of Eminem's lead D-12 to a soft rock, The Reason by Hoobastank. Really another great lyric... I simply like this part:

"I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you"

If i can show these to someone, hoping someone can understand.... :)

When to ITE MacPherson yesterday and got the Letter of Identity. I got a shock of my life when the person at ITE told me i must send the letter to CMPB personally. I thought fark, how am i to go there especially i don't even know where it is. Lucky to have Danny, went to his house and he gave CMPB a call and found out that it is possible to fax the letter over before Midnight on 13 May 2004. I hoped everything goes well and i think i giving him a call later in the afternoon as he said he will settled everything for me in his office. Well, at ITE, i slipped and fell in the front pouch. My Adidas Superstar really cannot wear already. The sole had finished already and somemore they using those tile that are very slippery during raining days. I hoped nobody see it if not it would a hell of a laughter for them. Well blamed last week work of night shift. I can't sleep at night and would sleep very well during day time. Shit, what can i do.... :-(

I just woken up from a nightmare. I felt like my chest being pressed down by a hands like a steps in the CPR and a eerie lady voice talking to me (I can't remember what it says) before being awoken by myself. I think it was just a dream probably after watching "Incredible Tales" on TV just now where they shown the story of a haunted office and the story of Under the PIE bridge just before Red Swastika Primary School. Well watching a show that being acted by 2 girls group from Hong Kong, Twins. Charlene Choi looks very nice not say Gillian Chung. Yesterday i told my supervisor that i do not want to work at the company anymore. And today, i was nagged whole day as why i quitted work. They do not know how the "torture" is and never feel how is it before yet comment on it. I hackcare about it though.... Later I'm making a trip down to ITE MacPherson to get a letter indictating the commencement and expected completion date of my course in ITE. I really wanted to get this paper before my enlistment as at least i got the these paperworks when i go in as not to be "look down" by people there. Just a O level i don't think they will care about considering that alot of people went into at least ITE or Poly and get their respective courses qualification.

Just came back from work...finally last day of work... actually i wanted to hang on till next month then stop but in the end, stop early due to me not be able to settle well into the surrounding and also a farking colleague of mine make the matter worst. But it is all over, now i will start a new round of job hunting hoping to get a job before school start. I going to ITE MacPherson tomorrow to get the document for the NS enlistment. What to do when you are a singaporean where there is compulsory national service for all able-bodied male at the age of 18. I got a friend already in as he went for early enlistment and another going in on 23 June 2004. Another i changed my song to "My Band" by D-12. The band that consist of the most popular rapper in the world, Eminem but he was just a rapper in the group not even the leader as he only performed in certain song instead of all. Other then Eminem, i liked Bizarre. The biggest member of the group quite a cute character while the rest like Swift, Kon Artis, Kurniva and founder, Proof are cool too. I heard that they had a member called Bugz being murdered back in 2001. All of them had "Bugz" tattoo on their forearm to remember him. Anyway, must sleep, really tired :P

i wanted to quit this farking job... the more i worked, the more i tortured myself to it. I planned to call my supervisor around this time but i just heard that some farking person told that farking supervisor of that farking job that i WILL come today and he was so convinced that i will go to work that he even give someone a off day....damn fark never asked me properly somemore my NS deferment letter is here and i planned to go down to ITE MacPherson to get the document regarding my deferment and send it over to cmpb my tomorrow before 5pm.... if not i also not sure whether it will reached the deadline or not.... I'm very guilty if i dun go to work which meant extra workload for them.... But quite agitated over the whole incident. I must do my National Service stuff first as this job is a non-contract and underpaid farking job..... (0.o)_\_

yoz... well i taking mc today...bad headache, nose bleeding, mild sore throat. Just 1 week after i started work, i started to feel the fatigue already. I should not work night shift if i knew i could not take the workload. But what to do, already started working already and also not long term worker. So might as well stayed until 3rd of June....the last day in that farking company. I do not know why i hated this work so much and everyday dragged myself to work and during work sometimes, i cursed and sweared about it.... haiz.... i hoped 3rd June quickly come

Finally Saturday....After 5 nights i think i started to feel the stress in the working life....even though i'm working as a part-timer, but my workload as well as pays is as much as a full-timer.... And also at my workplace, i know of a few "interesting" person. Thinking of one of them make me want puke while the other makes me want to laugh. I'm working until June 3rd and that final. Not quite bad the payment and also surrounding is nice but warm as the management switched off the air-condition after 10pm and on at 6am which my whole working time without the air-con which i reached there at about 10:30pm and get off work at 5:30am. Quite recommended for those that don't feel uncomfortable doing "auntie and uncle" work which i'm not one of those. I'm hoping at 3rd June came quickly and leave the management for good. I really preferred my former airport job in the cargo management instead..... :P

Well some of you may ask me, why of all song chose this song? "A Song for Lady" is one of the best korean song out there by a already disbanded group, H.O.T. Actually i want to like someone hear this song if she did came across my blog. 2nd day of work was quite different from the first. Probably I did adapted to the working environment already but most probably I'm going to quit after 15 May or 29 May as I do not quite like the job and no point working over a job that i got no interest over as I will not put my 100% over it. Somemore, i missed 85% of the once in 6-8mths Lunar Eclipse. I just catched the ending stages of it. But at least i saw it instead of missing it altogether......:D

Well, i feel like quitting after just one day of work. That is the worst job i ever did..... picking up dishes after washing and stack it up nicely for them. But what to do, still must at least work till May 22 before my first pay. If i quit today, i am working for free yesterday. Well next time, i knew already. Do not work as nightshift, really cannot take it as it was a test of mentality. :P

Well work later.... meeting at 10pm at Tampines CPF building that place. Quite nervous though as it is my first night shift job. But what to do!! For the sake of the new bagpack, sneaker as well as computer upgrading... no choice... All the best to me!!! :D

good morning to all. Well i'm trying not to sleep till 5am as during the same time tomorrow, i'll be working at SIA SAT Catering. I already think of what i'm going to do with my first payroll. First to get myself a new sneaker since my Adidas Superstar sneaker already worn out as well as a new bag pack. The remaining maybe either going to upgrade my this blooding Pentium to AMD. AMD rules man!!! Seem like Pentium processor works slower and slower as time goes by. While AMD is very fast all the way but it somehow generate quite a huge amount of heat which needed coolers in the system. When, hahahaha, have not even earn yet thinking of spending.... :P

New layout again but this time, not done myself this time but rather i got this template from somewhere this time. And also i decided not to go work today but rather tomorrow. And also for those that cannot see the chinese words please right click on your mouse>>Encoding>>Unicode :D

Waaaa.... i just woke up sia.... slept real early last night.... 7hours before my usual sleeping time at 4-5am.... Don't know how come yesterday night real tired and want to sleep wor.... I fell to sleep the moment i hit the bed.... Anyway, tomorrow i'm starting work liao.... hopefull got enough money to at least upgrade this bloody computer. Somemore sian half, the supervisor want me to start work tonight. Strike at the time i least expected it would. I still now sure whether to start work tonight or tomorrow. If i start work tonight, then on the payday on 19 May, i may have more money. Haiz, i need alot of consideration to think over it now currently.......

A Labour Day holiday for Singapore today. Just came back from a basketball game with friends just now. Well it's been ages since i last played the game and really enjoys every minutes of it even though I'm not playing as i was 2-3 years ago where i could run here and there without getting tired and accurate shooting. Maybe i should try to improve on my game already. And also i heard another familiar tune today. Quite a well known song in 1997 or 1998. It's a song by malaysian singer, 陈庆祥 or usually known as 阿牛. The song is called 对面的女孩看过来. Brought my memories when i played and sing with that song in class one day during sec 3 with the guitar which brought in some "huge reactions" from the girls.... :P

We are living in a very unstable world today. Whenever i flipped open the newspaper or on the TV, there are reports of war here and there. There are fighting in Indonesia, there are fighting in Southern Thailand, there are fighting between the Israelis and Palestinian and Iraq. Sometimes i felt myself as the most luckiest person in the world where there are not much thing to worry about. Don't need to worry about mother nature as Singapore do not have any volcano as well as far away from crustal belt where earthquake usually happens. But why there is alot of people say that life sucks!!! I'm kinda pissed on hear people living in Singapore that life suck. Yap, i agreed that standard of living is very stressful where almost everything is controlled by the government and also having the toughest law being governed in Singapore. And also it's not repressive like those in former Saddam Hussein regime as well as currently in North Korea. But at least, the living conditions under the world most evil man, Adolf Hitler is not that repressive as these 2 countries experiences. When the wall street crashes in 1928, since German mainly depend on foreign markets with it's rejuvenated economic changes under Gustav Stresemann, the country was deeply affected by it and many lost their jobs with the rose of unemployed from 1.8 millions in 1928 to 6millions in 1933. It was the new Chancellor, Adolf Hitler that revived the economy by gearing it towards war illegally. I do not know why they branded him as "The World Most Evil Man". I'm very awared that he was responsible for some purge such as "The Night of Long Knives" as Hitler acted along with some rumours of Sturm Abteilung (SA), the organisation that Hitler depended to protect the Nazi meetings and disrupted it's opposition which made it almost like a private army, that they were really to launch a revolt against the Nazi in which 150-200 members of SA were shot and also the oppression against the Jews which led to Holocaust discovered only after the War. But that doesn't meant he was the evil person. Speaking of Evil, i would say that the most evil and baddest would be Joseph Stalin of Communist Russia. He was ruthless and does not hesitated to kill when he felt there is a need to do so. And also cannot really blamed Hitler for starting the war. The start of war was due to the bad judgement and decision by Britian and France. They followed the policy of appeasement where they gave Hitler anything he demanded hoping to pacify him. If he was refused on something back then, maybe we may study a different history now. Hitler also came close to being non-existance when his mother wanted abortion when having him in the womb. But was talked by her doctor in keeping him. If Hitler never start the war, probably Stalin would. Back to my life now, anyway I'm turning 18 in another 40days. YEAH.... Finally i going to past my teenage years already and going out as a young adult. Teenage years is really fun and i felt that i got a privilege to study at Loyang Secondary School and joined the St.John Ambulance Bridage organisation as these 2 things really makes my teenage years fun and full of memories whether it's good or bad. And also friends that are always there whether it's for crapping or serious. Some of them I not really in contact with them already while some are still in contact and make us even more closer to each other. On 8th June 2004, I'm must learn myself to be more matured. No more fun days and whatsoever