Thursday, April 20

I believed in Evolution

Hi long time no blog. Not much significant things happened to me these few days however i found something that makes my belief that we evolved instead of being created.

Even as the evolution wars rage, on school boards and in courtrooms, biologists continue to accumulate empirical data supporting Darwinian theory. Two extraordinary discoveries announced this week should go a long way to providing even more of the evidence that critics of evolution say is lacking.

One study produced what biblical literalists have been demanding ever since Darwin -- the iconic "missing links." If species evolve, they ask, with one segueing into another, where are the transition fossils, those man-ape or reptile-mammal creatures that evolution posits?

In yesterday's issue of Nature, paleontologists unveiled an answer: well-preserved fossils of a previously unknown fish that was on its way to evolving into a four-limbed land-dweller. It had a jaw, fins and scales like a fish, but a skull, neck, ribs and pectoral fin like the earliest limbed animals, called tetrapods.

Discovered in 2004 on Canada's Ellesmere Island by Neil Shubin of the University of Chicago and Ted Daeschler of the Academy of Natural Sciences in Philadelphia, the 375-million-year-old Tiktaalik roseae "blurs the boundary between fish and land animals," said Prof. Shubin. It "is both fish and tetrapod," showing how life made the transition to land, evolving four limbs from fins.

Previously known fossils of ancient "lobe-finned fish" also seem poised between fish and tetrapods, with pectoral fins containing precursors of the humerus, radius and ulna of tetrapod armbones. But Tiktaalik (an Inuit word for shallow-water fish) makes a stronger case. Its pectoral fin still has thin, fish-like bones, but also contains the three armbones-to-be as well as a wrist-like structure and a hand-like one. The shoulder and elbow could bend, and the proto-wrist could extend, allowing the fin to support the body and propel it on land. "Tiktaalik shows us the stages in the evolution of the tetrapod body plan," says Dr. Daeschler.

Fossils from 10 Tiktaaliks were embedded in rock deposited by a meandering stream system, suggesting where that momentous step occurred.

But creationists, many of whose Web sites declare "there are no transitional forms," are not easily persuaded. John Morris of the Institute for Creation Research in Santee, Calif., says Tiktaalik "is just a variety of fish. There is still a huge gap [between fish and land-dwellers] that has to be filled."

Another discovery addresses something Darwin himself recognized could doom his theory: the existence of a complex organ that couldn't have "formed by numerous, successive, slight modifications," he wrote in 1859.

The intelligent-design movement, which challenges teaching evolution, makes this the centerpiece of its attack. It insists that components of complex structures, such as the eye, are useless on their own and so couldn't have evolved independently, an idea called irreducible complexity.

Because only functional structures survive, they say, useless components such as parts of an eye couldn't lie around for eons waiting for dumb luck to assemble them into a (finally) functional unit. These complex structures therefore must have been assembled by a designer.

One such complex structure is a hormone and its receptor. Just as a keyhole has no use without a key and vice versa, a hormone is useless without a receptor that lets it dock with a cell, and a receptor serves no purpose without hormones. Catch-22: Neither component could survive without the other, yet it strains credulity to suppose that both structures popped onto the evolutionary scene simultaneously.

To investigate this puzzle, biologists led by Joseph Thornton of the University of Oregon reconstructed an ancestral receptor. They first analyzed receptors for steroid hormones in 59 species, including primitive jawless fish and skates. Then, in a process called gene resurrection, they worked backward to infer what the gene for the ancestral receptor was, and actually made the receptor in the lab: a molecule that last existed on earth 450 million years ago.

Testing various hormones on the ancestral receptor, the scientists found that both aldosterone and another one fit. The ancestral receptor, therefore, was fully employed acting as the keyhole for this second hormone. When aldosterone appeared on the scene by random mutation, it co-opted the existing receptor, the researchers conclude in today's issue of Science.

The findings, says Christoph Adami of the Keck Graduate Institute of Applied Life Sciences, Claremont, Calif., "solidly refute" ID.

But refutation is in the eye of the beholder. No scientific discovery will end the evolution wars. For one thing, adherents of ID call the fact that scientists are studying reducible-complexity at all a victory for their side. "We're delighted they're engaging in a debate that they say doesn't exist," says Stephen Meyer of the Discovery Institute in Seattle, which pushes ID. Moreover, he says, the hormone-receptor system is not really irreducibly complex.

The trouble for ID is that this isn't the first study to show, step by step, how complex structures could have evolved. Recent experiments have shown how irreducibly complex structures such as bacterial flagella and the lens of an eye could have evolved by co-opting existing structures just as the hormone did. More such research is in the pipeline.

Phew hand is so tired after typing hahaha

Saturday, April 15

Home

Michael Buble - Home

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day
Has come and gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be allright
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

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I had a confession to make. I'm not really a fan of Michael Buble, in fact jazz and blues are really not my type of music. But I wondered why i'm so into this song so much. Probably that something that happened to me recently made me having this nostalgia feelings.

Basically this song is about a couple seperated and going on a seperate journey but end up finding their way back to each other. A classic love story i supposed.

Maybe it's because i fell head over heels in love with her but she ended up breaking my heart, but i still can't really get over her at least just not yet. Yet i don't really hated her or anything and still like her since day 1 without any changes in my opinion of her. I pray and pray to God hoping that he will let our path crosses again in the future and under the right circumstances where could really know how to cherish each other better than before. I am planning to buy the single for this song and hand her the copy the day I leave her for what could be forever. I hope she will someday realises what i love and misses her and what i did for her. I know i am going to want to be with her everyday until the day that i meet someone like her or better (if that days comes). There is always hope right? I'll continue to hope

Wednesday, April 12

A Sad Day, Moment and Time

My saddest moment

I just updated my songs and i still feeling really hurt what she told me just now. She told me terrible things. I want to help her but i felt i don't know her anymore and i don't believed what i heard. Valerie, all i want is your love. But seriously, come away with me, leave everything while we still can. But i still can't believe what i'm hearing, my feelings and instinct was right. You've changed. Valerie you are breaking my heart over what you've had done and also what you've planned to do if all the questions i put out to you and your answer being yes. Only a demon deals in absolute. Quit following your feelings, do what you must and should have done long time ago and atoned for it, there is still alot of time for you to do it.

The reason why i personally chose these 2 songs.

Papa Roach - Scars:
A change has taken place in this person and now he finds himself looking back at the past and on the brink of a bright new future. And he realizes that he's cared so much for people and that's the very reason that he's had such tragedy.

"My scars remind me that the past is real"

And just when he's ready to try again, he is reminded of his scars and how he has been so open hearted but (as the cliche goes) used, abused, and left out like trash.

Now he's ready to do his thing, and so am I! I have spent the greater part of my 19 years living for other people, trying to fix others, and bleeding for the faith of others. And now I've learned the following: That people are needy and they'll suck your life away, that you can't help what chooses not to be helped, and that the only way you can surely help people is by getting on with your own life until you can give back to them from a distance.

Aerosmith - Hole in My Soul:
Its seems to me this song is about still being in love with someone who doesn't love you back so you go out to find someone to take their place:

"I'm down a one way street
With a one night stand
With a one track mind
Out in no man's land
The punishment sometimes
Don't seem to fit the crime"

but the thing is you can't replace this person and you're left feeling all lost and then you finally realize that you can move on and you feel nothing anymore. This really feels like when someone you care so much lets you down it leaves a bruise within yourself that no other relationship you might have will heal. Maybe someday, I will be brave enough to tell her how much she hurt me inside, and that she really was the one that turned the knife inside of me acting like she did. And she left a hole.

Slowly stepping out of that hurting situation and say goodbye is what this song means to me, and the pain it leaves you, even knowing that's the best and only thing you can do.

However, Valerie, my opinion of you had never changed at all. Not even once, i just felt really hurt, sad and depressed now.

Sunday, April 9

True

Ryan Cabrera - True

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

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Hi all again, did some minor updates to the blog. I had a radioblog now and those songs on it is for you and i think you know who you are. I gave her a stalk of rose on friday and she was caught off guard i think. She told me that she was shocked as she never thought i would do so. The reason i gave her the rose is because she told me once that she had not recieved any flowers before so this idea just came to my mind. If i could, i would know what Tom Cruise did on Opray Winfrey Show where he jumped up and down portraying his love for Katie Holmes.

Actually speaking of Tom Cruise or rather the creature known as Tom Cruise. The reason i said that is because I really think Scientologist is some childplay. It's funny to see some weird people in this world worship or believed that alien inhabited their bodies since the time of the ancient people. What's even more ironic is that it's founder, L Ron Hubbard was a science fiction writer.

This is the story WHAT SCIENTOLOGISTS ACTUALLY BELIEVE:

"Seventy-five million years ago, Xenu was the ruler of a Galactic Confederacy which consisted of 26 stars and 76 planets including Earth, which was then known as Teegeeack. The planets were overpopulated, each having on average 178 billion people. The Galactic Confederacy's civilization was comparable to our own, with people
"walking around in clothes which looked very remarkably like the clothes they wear this very minute" and using cars, trains and boats looking exactly the same as those "circa 1950, 1960" on Earth. Xenu was about to be deposed from power, so he devised a plot to eliminate the excess population from his dominions. With the assistance of "renegades", he defeated the populace and the "Loyal Officers", a force for good that was opposed to Xenu. Then, with the assistance of psychiatrist, he summoned billions of people to paralyse them with injections of alcohol and alcohol, under the pretense that they were being called for "income tax inspections". The kidnapped populace was loaded into space planes for transport to the site of extermination, the planet of Teegeeack (Earth). The space planes were exact copies of Douglas DC-8 aircraft, "except the DC-8 had fans, propellers on it and the space plane didn't." DC-8s have jet engine not propellers, although Hubbard may have meant the turbine fans.

When the space planes had reached Teegeeack/Earth, the paralysed people were unloaded and stacked around the bases of volcanoes across the planet. Hydrogen bombs were lowered into the volcanoes, and all were detonated simultaneously. Only a few people's physical bodies survived.

The now-disembodied victims' souls, which Hubbard called ''thetans'', were blown into the air by the blast. They were captured by Xenu's forces using an ''"electronic ribbon"'' (which also was a type of standing wave) and sucked into vacuum zonesaround the world. The hundreds of billions of captured thetans were taken to a type of movie theater where they were forced to watch a 3D film|three-D, super colossal motion picture for 36 days. This implanted what Hubbard termed various misleading data (collectively termed the R6 implant implant) into the memories of the hapless thetans, which has to do with God, the Devil, space opera, etcetera. This included all world religions, with Hubbard specifically attributing Roman Catholic Church and the image of the Crucifixion to the influence of Xenu. The interior decoration of all modern theaters is also said by Hubbard to be due to an unconscious recollection of Xenu's implants. The two "implant stations" cited by Hubbard were said to have been located on Hawaii and Las Palmasin the Canary Islands.

In addition to implanting new beliefs in the thetans, the images deprived them of their sense of identity. When the thetans left the projection areas, they started to cluster together in groups of a few thousand, having lost the ability to differentiate between each other. Each cluster of thetans gathered into one of the few remaining bodies that survived the explosion. These became what are known as ''body thetans'', which are said to be still clinging to and adversely affecting everyone except those Scientologists who have performed the necessary steps to remove them."

To be frank, i actually don't quite hated them at all. I just laugh at their belief as this is what matched the term stupid. I believed they used threats too as i can related to a case of a scientologist named Issac Hayes. As most south park fans knew it, Issac Hayes was the voice of the wildly popular character named Chef in the series. It all happened when south park producers' Matt Stone and Trey Parker decided to make fun of the "religion".

However, Hayes quit South Park on March 14, 2006, after voicing the Chef character for nine seasons. His stated reason was that he was angry with the show's take on religion. Hayes quit South Park on March 14, 2006, after voicing the Chef character for nine seasons. His stated reason was that he was angry with the show's take on religion. Critics — including Matt Stone in a statement — charge that Hayes never had any problems with South Park's take on religion, including Christianity, Judaism, Islam, or Mormonism, until Scientology was criticized in the episode "Trapped in the Closet". In fact - Isaac Hayes's answer to a question on XM radio show "Opie and Anthony" several months ago "How do you feel about Matt and Trey making fun of scientology?" was along the lines of: "I have no problem with it, you have to take everything Matt and Trey say with a grain of salt." This leads to suspicion that Hayes was somehow coerced into quitting.

In the South Park episode "Trapped in the Closet", a satire and exposé of Scientology, Hayes did not appear in his role as Chef. In an interview for The A.V Club on January 4, 2006, Hayes was asked about the episode. Hayes said that he told the creators, "Guys, you have it all wrong. We're not like that. I know that's your thing, but get your information correct, because somebody might believe that shit, you know?" He then told them to take a couple of Scientology courses to understand what they do. He even went on to tell that if anybody take South Park seriously, then he would sell that person the brooklyn bridge for $2.

That is why i believe that scientologist is really but some clown stuff.

Wednesday, April 5

Okay, i'm back to blog another entry into this never-ending blog of mine. I remember i first started blogging, i'm using the free webhosting from netfirm and my first template is a self-created one based on by favourite manga/anime of all times, One Piece. It had indeed came a long way that i have 223 posts now consider that i don't blog everyday.

Anyway, i'm so happy now that i had been given a chance for a potential relationship with her. I don't think i would confess to her just yet as i believe that actions speaked louder than words. I will make her feel good around me, show her that i care about her and hopefully things will happen naturally. I want her to feel my emotions but not just feelings. In fact I want to lay everything out in the open for her. I think i really like her as i had thought through this alot of times. I had put myself on a hypothetical planet and it had the worst surrounding and environment in the world. I imagined that in this place, there is nothing, only her beside me. Eventhough we could only be alive for the next few days, i would be really happy to spend the rest of my life with her. I know you will be reading this, i hoped that you really knew how i feel now.

Ok now into politics, well i really don't give a damn about who will win the upcoming election. I don't mind without PAP retook all the seats again or the oppositions got some margin of victories again PAP. Singapore is a peaceful place and no matter who win, as long as it's still peaceful, i really don't mind. If i can vote, i think i will put a blank vote into the voting box. I think i'll be more interested in foreign politic especially the US. Well I got to admire George Bush as a hardliner against terrorist but it's quite alarming for their narrow view of the world now. They think they are the only superpower in the world and the world only "legal" peacemaker. This is what resulted in Iraq and Afghanistan. They have not learnt their lesson from Vietnam and Somalia still and might be looking for another crushing defeat. I think their view stem from the time just after World War 2 where the world is being divided into Communist Russia and Democratic America. America wants to jump into any chance that will deprofile the Russian and vice versa. This is what they created--------> North and South Korea. They want to stop the communist north vietnam and even supported the corrupted south vietnam during the vietnam which supposed to be a civil war and their foreign intervention makes it all illegal. Their insufficient planning in Somalia caused 19 deaths among them which event even made it into a blockbuster war movie starring Josh Hartnett.

My eyes hurt as i had not sleep yet, going to blog again soon. Byebye

Monday, April 3

3 doors down - Here Without You

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight
It’s only you and me

The miles just keep rolling
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I’m here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
You're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl
It’s only you and me

Everything I know
And anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it’s all said and done
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl
It’s only you and me
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The above is for the lyric that is currently playing on my blog. The reason why i choose this song is because this song had the most powerful lyrics i ever heard. For those who don't know, World Wrestling Entertainment (WWE) used this song for the tribute video they did for Eddie Guerrero when he passed away suddenly in November last year. Basically it's above a person living a life without the person he holds dear. The person could have be suffering from the lost of a loved ones through death, a broken relationship or the other person is leaving home for somewhere which he will not be returning soon eg. national service, university, work in a foreign land and many other similar scenarios.

The song was originally written by the band's roadie for his wife as he had spent too much time touring with the band and had become homesick and missing his wife. The band came across the lyrics and decided to make it into a song and had since became one of their fans or listeners favourite.

The reason that i really liked this song is because it somehow related to me alot especially the part where the singer sang that he is without the person he was refering to yet the person is still on his mind and is always dreaming of him/her. It related to me is because i kept thinking of that someone i holds dear. I just had her on my dream when i slept last night, and i had her too on in my dream few days ago eventhough it's really strange as i don't really dreamt of people i knew in the past. All my dreams were strange but it should not be like this at all. But still i don't think i should care about anything just as this as i still got my life to live.

I had been feeling strange again the whole day. What i entered last night on my blog makes me feel like I'm becoming jealous or concerned when it became evident that someone is trying to woo her. I had told her that i want to delete the entry away with this reason but she say it doesn't matter at all. Haiz..........

Sunday, April 2

Blogging again at this ghostly hour. I had been in a very serious thoughts just now, it's like the ghost from my past came back and haunt me. I was talking regarding the behavior of Valerie's manager just now when suddenly i had thought of my former best friend cum classmates of 4 years. He was Valerie's ex-boyfriend in some sense eventhough she did not admit directly but still it's more of an open secret that everyone knows about. One day, he suddenly deleted me away from his contacts be it MSN or Friendster. I listened to alot of my former classmates that he still believes that i'm the one at fault regarding their relationship. This was obvious in one of his previous updated profile on his friendster with the lines like "G like V but V still don't know. G tells V and V tells H." I know it's quite a vague sentence and i myself do not understand it myself. But i can roughly made out of out what the initials meant. G is him, V is Valerie while H is the initial of my chinese name. Other than that, i really do not know what he meant too. After they broke up, he kept posting remarks aiming to made her guilty. I can't remember what he put but it's not really some nice things in my opinion. This is some opinion that is being shared with my good friend, Vanessa as well. But still i believed it's time to bury the past as someone told me as a man, if you kept thinking of the past, you will not progress into the future and be stuck in the present.

Back to what we were talking before i had that thought, I was telling her that her manager is trying to woo her. In my point of view, a person regardless of how close they are, they should not be phoning her every now and then. He is very interested to know what is she doing, who is she going out with and what is the relationship between her and the godbro. He even insisted on meeting her everytime at night and walk her home before jumping into the cab himself. I had nothing to say but still concluded that he is really trying to jio her. Call me sensitive but this is really what i felt everytime when i was out with her and the phones kept coming. She told me that she had not thought about what she would say if he is to propose to her one day and say that he liked her, i really have this instinct that this is coming sooner than later.

You may ask why am i feeling this? Can say that i'm really down on luck. I do not have the thing called 缘分 to be with her or something. I doubted she will care about me if i told her i like her the next time i met her or something as fate is simply not there at all. Maybe being close friends like what we are now will be the closest we ever get.

Anyway, i had watched Ice Age 2 today. One of the most funniest cartoon i ever watched in recent times and recommended all to watch it.