I Need Anger Management Class

*Listening to: Jon McLaughlin - Beautiful Disaster

I believed i do because i realised how quick my temper flares up especially what happened today. Eventhough i think the whole episode and drama was not my fault. I'm still fucking angry over it. I don't mind kena all the saikang or whatever shit but if want got saikang, make sure every one also got it as well. Fucking hell why does it that even after i off-shift, i got to continue to work. It's not that there is no one around but got like 8-9 other people slacking and idling in office and meal area but why don't call them. I and my team members woke up at around 0430 am this morning to do all the shit work. I don't mind about that because it's still during my duty hours but yet after 8am which my officer already said can leave but this fucker still keep throwing sai kang after sai kang for me and my team which i was so fucking irritated that i started to argue with him. Fucking sore loser that threatened Mr Raymond against me. I won't give a damn to him anymore that i will apply urgent leave tomorrow and definately will not return to camp. If he ask me to come back which i definately won't do it. I intended not to answer his phone call and will reply back to him if he msg me to call him back. I will reply that i will not call you back and he don't bother calling me. He call me one time, i reject his call one time. This is definately for sure.

Like what my friend said, "When you did not do anything, people will ignored you but if you do something and did wrongly, you will be fucked." I really agreed on this sentence now especially what i did for him yet he still demands more from me. I wondered how to survive 3 weeks at Taiwan with him. I should never volunteered to go there in the first place.

Just have a short exchange of msg with Valerie, i think this is the first time i typed her name here in my blog. She says that she do not have the confidence and don't even know what she studied in past few days plus her stomach making the whole thing worst. All i want to say is must have confidence girl. Ignorance and Confidence are both keys to success. From the book, Secret by Rhonda Byrne, ignore any other things that are redundant in your mind now and make your examination as dominant thoughts now. It really do helps as this what i did recently. Result came back and did very well for that particular module. All the best, must believe in yourself too.
Also i recently had a chat with a childhood friend, Rhonda on msn and she broke up with her guy of 6 years. It came just a shock because for those who knows her will definately thinks that they will meant for each other and definately spending the rest of their lives with each other. Ok Rhon, you will someday find someone who will definately need you more than him. Someone will change everything for happily ever after.

With this, i think i'm signing off.

Another weekend?

*Listening to: Jason Mraz - Wordplay

Now it's into my 4th weekend just for this Mas Selamat guy. It's getting really exhaustive and irritating that it had been affecting every personnels that are involved in the manhunt personal life. But what to do, since he is still believed to be in Singapore despite report that he had been spotted in E.Java.

You see, the Singapore government had thrown so much money and effort to train up every NSF and upgrade all the technologies. We boosted as having the most modern and high-tech defense force in SE ASIA and one of the best in the world but his escape is really a wakeup call. We should not take our peace for granted and that every terrorist threat is as real as it could be. As PM Lee said, his escape is a setback and a mistake should not be repeated especially it took 40 over years to build up. I still hoped he can be caught soon so at least i can have some peace and not returning to camp each and everyday and not sleeping in peace in fear that of mindef activation.

Currently i'm really addicted to Jason Mraz's I'm Yours. It's one of the best song ever. I had heard the sample version of it but i really felt that the final version of the song is the best. Somemore it's video which i believed was filmed in Hawaii or some similar climate countries is really cool. I wonder how much will it cost to go Hawaii for holiday. I think it's one of the countries i hoped to visit before i die.

Suddenly i feel like getting myself the fedora or trilby hat. Probably this was also influenced by Jason Mraz's as well hahaha. Not sure when had i become such a great fan of his. haha

Tomorrow will have one of the greatest match in EPL ever. Manchester United vs Liverpool. I got a feeling that Man Utd will definately triumph over Liverpool. Remember Man Utd is very strong at home. I guess the secret to Liverpool's success is to shut down both Torres and Gerrard. I respect the rest of the team's abilities but I believed Man Utd got what it takes to win. Ben Foster's heroics during the last 2 matches should not be underestimated. Somemore not to forget, Cristiano Ronaldo. He should be the winner of the World Player of the Year 2008.

I think that is all for now but one last thing before i go. I was reading a discovery channel magazine today. It's something that i felt i must do. I must help up in conservation. Alot of animals had already gone and many species might follow the suit. One of them is the mountain gorilla. Fuck all the poachers and rebels killing them for food or personal gain. We don't own the world but the world owned us. Remember we were apes many years ago as well so what i'm saying that we share a similar trend to them but why do we have to kill them? Infact not just gorillas but many our animal? I don't believe in PETA as they are eco-terrorist. Bringing something to their agenda must not used threat or similar other stupid PR stunts. You can just be like Steve Irwin who tries to educate the public about them.

I think i suddenly wanted to subscribe to Discovery Channel Magazine now.

How not to name your children

*Listening to: Yael Naim - New Soul

I know it's kinda late now and i need to return to camp tomorrow. But before i sleep, i guess i just blog a short post here.



I got the above picture from an email that someone sent me.

So the picture, so Mr. Suparman named his son, Batman.

Imagine when he grows up, he names his son - Spiderman bin Batman or if he has a daughter, she is being named Wonderwoman binte Batman.

Or you can also imagine this scenario that he is trying to call Singtel.

Singtel: "Hello, Singtel customer service, can i help you?"
Batman: "yeah, my phone got stolen"

Singtel: "Can i have your name please?"
Batman: "Batman."

Singtel: " ... i'm sorry?"
Batman: "Batman. B-a-t-m-a-n..."

Singtel: ".... I appreciated that you hang up if this is a prank call."
Batman: "No no, please don't my name is really Batman. Full name is Batman bin Superman."

I know i sould kinda bad but this is really funny. So the end of the story is do think properly before naming your child. Anyway, this guy reminds me of someone i met at CMPB once. Bring back such memory hahahaha.

Good Friday

*Listening to: Wyclef Jean feat. Akon, Lil Wayne & Niia - Sweetest Girl (Dollar Bill)

This is a good friday holiday and really "good" for me. Currently having this thing called "Operation Stand Down for 48 Hours". This means that i'm currently having 2 days worth of rest before restarting everything again this coming saturday. It might feel short but i really appreciated it alot because i really need this rest as i'm really burning out as i'm typing this. My leg still feeling tired despite almost 11 hours of sleep the previous night.

I finally bought the Manchester United current season home jersey. I'm loving it and most probably might wear it out if i'm going out tonight. I'm still thinking whether i wanna go out or not because of the fatigue issue eventhough i felt that i had recover much from it.

I think my next target could be probably the Playstation 3. I had been eyeing this for a very time already and i felt this year should be a good year to get it.

Meetup with some friends last saturday. They say the good things end fast which is quite true. Really enjoying that few hours of meetup and hopefully can do so again next week or what. Looking forward to that planned KTV session after her exam alot. I think this should be the last outing with her before i left for my Taiwan training.

Tired

*Listening to: Muse - StarLight

The last time i posted here is the day Mas Selamat Kastari escaped from the detention center. Later that night around 3am was activated to help look for the fugitive. Going into my third weekend of this exhaustive search for him. I hoped everything can end soon as i'm really mentally burnt out. What's more, the Taiwan Exercise coming up and i don't think that it will be cancelled though from the looks of it. Soon i might go mad from exhaustion if this really continue. Please God, do help me as I really can't take this anymore and i believed this goes for all the personnels involved in what was believed to be the biggest manhunt in Singapore's history.

Few days ago, I dreamt of someone that i thought i had already given up on her. It's about her that just passed away and lying in the casket with a kind of brown dress with some symbols or designs on it. It was so real and when i woke up suddenly next moment, i had these dried tears around my eyes. Alright first of all, she is not dead yet but i knew she is leading some stressful life now apparently. So the next day i sms her during my lunchbreak to ask her well-being which all indication not that good. She told me she wanna quit her job because she couldn't balance out between work and school. I think you should know who you are and not too sure will you come in and read this, but do take care of yourself. Get enough sleep and drink lots of water because of the weather now as the rainfall had been going on and off. I know that work and studies together will be very stressful, even i'm experiencing it but try your best to cope with it ok?? And if you really had any personal problem please do not keep it to yourself. SMS me or MSN me and believe it, i will be the one to respond to you without fail. Take care ok??

Dear God, the only thing i ask of you now apart from ending all the "Mas Selamat Saga" is to hold and take care of her so i can have a peace of mind as I'm really troubled by that particular dream.

It's March now but it feels like December. The rain had been going on and off for a few days already. March are supposed to be getting warmer instead of raining everyday. Eventhough Singapore only have Dry/Wet season and have rainfall throughout the year but still this should be a record rainfall for the month of march. Maybe the world is changing now? It's still raining in China and it's snowing in the Middle East especially Iran and UAE. Everybody should heard of this 21 December 2012 prediction right? Maybe the world will end even before this date and probably this date is the restart of civilisation and we will go into stone age yet again. Should this happen, maybe the Earth will repair and heal by itself for millions of years.

So whether i die before that date or not, guess i'm only left with 4 years on Earth. I would rather live fast die young instead of worrying about whatever things that going to happen.