This song is currently printed in my mind.... probably the greatest song from Guns N' Roses!!!

"When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love methen darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time... all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way'
Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one"

Those in italic had some great meanings behind it.....

"Embrace me, tighter than ever.
I hear your voice on restless night.
The world will be drowned with blood someday.
Just let me forget that news.
I don't want to know.
Nobody reason, nobody sure when is the end.
Ah, Just a little bit more, I don't care if it's all lies.
Sing for me!!
But if this rickety, powerless ark keeps rowing along.
Nobody reason, no one confess that it was wrong."

I just watched "The Hidden Blade" at GV Plaza. I would say that it's really great samurai movie. Let me describe the movie abit here. It's set in the mid-19th century when Japan is being divided between hardcore loyalist and modern reformist after Perry Black Ship landed on the shore. The story bring us to a small town where most reformist situated. They learnt how to use the cannon and how trained with the rifle while perfecting their skill of the katana. Katagiri is the main character in the story, which show how he lives his life. Respected swordman and the 2nd strongest in his clan. His good friend, Hazama went to Edo to find work while he stayed in the small town. He even went great deed of piggyback his former maid, Kie who was badly treated in her husband house. Eventhough it was a "normal" thing to do now but it will caused some commotions back then. Then news came, Hazama was arrested as he plotted in the revolt against the shogunate. He was even refused of the privilege of committing suicide in order to save his honor. Hazama was sent back to his hometown in a prisoner basket but managed to kill the guard and barricaded himself in a phesant house. The governor ordered Katagiri to kill Hazama as he knew that in term of skill, Katagiri matched Hazama. Facing a dilemma, he decided to accept it as his initial plan was to persuade Hazama to commit hara-giri instead of him killing him. But Hazama stubborness and obsession of claiming he was the strongest led him to his death. Hazama was shot by the gun squadron when the fighting brought to the open. He was already sad and angried by the governor for ordering him to kill his best friend. It was made worst when it was known that Hazama's wife slept the governor hoping to order Katagiri to let his husband escaped. The governor lied to him saying he will but confessed that he had to kill Hazama but couldn't bare to say no to his wife's charm. With this, he set for revenge in killing the governor which he succeeded. He was never caught as there are not witnesses and the weapon he used making the governor having a puncture wound on his left chest without bleeding which then, the doctor claimed as being "not done by a human". After that, he renounced his samurai status, left the clan, marries Kie and left for Ezo Island.

My conclusion of this, well for those looking for high profile samurai fight scene like those in anime, Rurouni Kenshin or Samurai Ressurrection. Well there is only 2. One as mentioned above, it's between Katagiri and Hazama. The other is not consider a fight scene but rather Katagiri went to look for his master in order to acquire the succession technique that would matched Hazama. It's mostly drama with a mixed of comedy. So for a samurai movie fan, this is definately a must to watch.

Planning to watch Divergence with her and vanessa this coming thursday, still considering the fact that we are no longer the type of friends we used to be.

Thursday had the IA phase test and i would say that the person that set the phase test is definately insulting my intelligence. Even a person that just been introduced to Macromedia Dreamweaver can passed the test well i believed. Anyway, i believed that i had become an officially Star Wars Freak. I'm watching it like quite a few times already, i even know some of their lines as well.

Changed the song to "The Reason by Hoobastank".... one of my personal favourite. Had jammed this song with Junsheng and Dorence before and i messed up with the drums steps. I'm wondering why am i having the rashes now!! I did not had any history of medical history or food allergies. Probably due to the surrounding?? Highly possible as my place is having intensive thermal fogging to clear of mosquitoes since there were reports of a few cases of confirmed dengue fever in the area. Also i think i will flunged the Internet Application test as i really forgotten about the stuff already.

The reason i changed to my current song is actually i got no particular reason for it. Just felt that it's cute. I realised that my laptop heated up quite fast. Wonder is it the fan not working or what cos it should not be that hot i believed.

Arrghhhh!!! Couldn't sleep the whole night. I felt really restless which i decided to blog again. When i was lying on the bed, i thought of her again. This is my thoughts which i immediately wrote it on the piece of paper....

"Fragments of the dream we saw that day, was stretched across the sunset.
It feels as if you were here, I look over my shoulder...
But everytime i only see the emptiness...
Even now, in my deep red memory you wears a gentle smile.
It's more painful than giving up. I've gotten used to losing everything.
I rather be beaten up than to not try and regret.
Maybe tomorrow i'll be stronger than the person I am today.
I'm sure you are smiling somewhere out there, even when i want to cry."

Nothing much for me to blog for friday except that in the morning during thinking skill class, i was somehow "bullied" by the pinky duo of Nazi & Lina. Both of them always wear pink sweater in class and very close together too thus the nickname "Pinky Duo". After that, reach home and have a bath before going into sleep till almost 9pm. Out of boredom i wrote the following out....

"How long has it been since we met?
We had many happy things, and many sad things.
Faced with my faltering words, you are bewildered.
But one's true feelings are not easy to express.
Will my feelings get through you?
Will my sentiment get through you?
I'm happy if i can carry on with a natural smile.
Will it go on like that?
Can we go on like that?
Even if we are far apart, i hope to feel your heart close to me!!"

This is something interesting after watching the J-Dorama, Gokusen ~season 1~

"There is alot of families in the world
Blood ties isn't guaranteed that family members will get along.
There are families like ours, too.
But don't parent wished for their children happiness?
However a parents' idea of their children happiness may differ from their children's point of view.
There are parent that would sever their ties over one slightest disagreement.
Keeping a family together is not a easy matter."

This prose maybe simple but it did holds some very important message. I can related it to myself. Eventhough i'm having almost everything such as having a shelter when it rains, will never grow hungry etc but i still felt something is missing from my life!!! I'm still looking to find out what is it and i believed it's from family ties!!!

Using my laptop to blog again. Still not quite used to the typing yet but really enjoy the feelings well typing this. Well, i did not attended school on thursday as mentioned on my earlier blog. I was not feeling really well. So i spent the whole day sleeping eventhough the weather is quite warm. I think i did not missed out on much lessons since it's just Internet Application only. Tomorrow will a 2hours IA lessons. Hope i will not be late or be going into IA to surf the net. LOL

Prior to my song changes, it's a song from the drama currently showing on tv. It's called Love at Dolphin Bay and currently according to the salesperson from TS and Poh Kim, it's top on their sales list. My mother really liked the lead actor, Ambrose Xu acting which according to her, wanted to watch it again. I chose this song is not because i like the show but rather it's related to us. If you reading this, this song is for you. You left me with this particular dream that will never be able to fulfill. I'm slowly walking away from your life as i believed will only be an obstruction for both of us. I will remember everything we had done and treat it as something really special. Also, i may seem happy go lucky and also had a mentality that nothing had happen but actually it's the opposite. I'm having this fear of meeting you already and guess it really will never be the same again!!

Using my laptop blogging this entry now. Now i'm revising the internet application software which is dreamweaver. Having 3 phase tests next week. I think IA will be on either tuesday or thursday since there is a 3 hours lesson on these 2 days. I do not know why but my left hand is quite numb now. But i don't think is much big deal which i believe is just a muscle ache or something. I also having a slight stomachache also. Today, whole day had not been feeling well. On the bus en route to school, i suddenly felt very sick. Probably from the motion sickness or something. I felt that i'm getting super headache as well as having the urge to vomit out. This feeling only stopped a few moments after i alighted the bus. Before that, while waiting for the bus, i missed a step, fell and badly sprained my ankle. Probably i not going to school on thursday since i still felt quite sick yet.

Now listening to F.I.R new album. What i can commented is that eventhough it's good but it had too much western influenced in their new songs. I still preferred having oriental style of music since they are a chinese band as it symbolised some sense of recognition. Anyway, it's time for me to go back to looking through those coding again. Will blog again soon provided i got event to blog about!!!

I'm back blogging at this very early hours of the day. Well, i'm having a very bad headache again. I do not know why i kept having frequent headache now and then. Probably something to do with with over-stressed. I went to collect my laptop free gifts at Funan IT Mall. As expected, i got the Lexmark All-in-One printer that costs around $300. I was hoping for the Olympus Digicam or the Video Cam. But i was content with the printer as my printer already starting to shows that it's dying. Well in case you people is wondering, of all songs why did i put this as my current song. Here is the lyric:

"信乐团 - 海阔天空

我曾怀疑我 走在沙漠中 从不结果 无论种什么梦
才张开翅膀 风却便沉默 习惯伤痛能不能 算收获
庆幸的是我 一直没回头 终于发现 真的是有绿洲
每把汗流了 生命变的厚重 走出沮丧才看见 新宇宙
海阔天空 在勇敢以后 要拿执着 将命运的所打破
冷漠的人 谢谢你们曾经看轻我 让我不低头 更精采的活
凌晨的窗口 失眠整夜以后 看着黎明 从云里抬起了头
日落是沉潜 日出是成熟 只要是光一定会 灿烂的
海阔天空 在勇敢以后 要拿执着 将命运的所打破
海阔天空 狂风暴雨以后 转过头 对旧心酸一笑而过
最懂我的人 谢谢一路默默的陪着我
让我拥有好故事可以说 看未来 一步步来了"

Well, in all of my life.... i had been look down by alot of people. One of them is my sec school D&T teacher. Well it's hard to think back but i felt that it really thought my some of my hardest lesson in life which i really appreciated it.

I'm typing this out in Paya Lebar Singapore Post MacDonald. Using the laptop at mac is real cool and from where i sitting, i can see alot of people doing the same as me. I bought this laptop for school work but since i forgotten to bring my thumbdrive (again!!) so i'm using this laptop for normal, leisure surfing of the internet from the macdonald. Overall quite satisfied with the performance and super value for the money. For those looking for a cheap but good laptop, this Acer TravelMate 2308LCi is definately for you. However, the only set back is that it only had a 256MB of ram but however you can go customised it a little from the vendor. I added another 256MB of ram to make it having 512MB of it. And also, i did not install the bundled Norton Antivirus 2005 as well NTI cd maker or something. I still preferred the old but handy Nero. The reason that i did not install NAV is because it's memory usage is abit too much. So i installed the EZTrust Antivirus which had quite afew good reviews from internet users. It's not memory hogging and quite good in detecting virus etc.

Still had about 1hour more to go before my next lesson, down here i'm bored to death already.

As i'm typing this, i'm watching Star Wars Episode IV: New Hope. I wondering since when i started to like it. Hopefully i can finish watching all 5 before the Episode 3: Revenge of The Silth start to show. Anyway, with regards to my earlier post, I'm officially been screwed. Can't really says this out on what had happened since people can come in here and see it. Back blogging more again since i do not had much to post as of now :D

Revamp

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