You know, it's said that in reality
No one is able to love
When I met that frightened you
I finally understood that meaning
Because we've hurt each other, if we were to meet now
It would be too sad I want to tell you, from my heart
Surely, if you could only
Wish for your true self
You still laugh clumsily
Because sadness still suits you
If I was born Only to meet you
I wonder if I could change I want to tell you, from my heart
You've been hurt too much, but we'll still make it in time
I love you from my heart
I want to wipe away the pain that falls on you
Everything is I for you

I want to tell you, from my heart
If I was able to look at your smile forever
I love you from my heart
I want to collect the light that falls on you
Everything is I for you

~Jason, 22/02/2005

I know.
It's all wrong.
By right, we shouldn't even be here.... But we are!!

It's like in a great stories, the ones that really matters.
Full of darkness and dangers they were.
And sometimes you didn't want to know the end...
because how could the end be happy?
How could the world go back to the way it was... when so much bad had happened?
But in the end, it's only a passing thing... this shadow.
Even darkness must pass.
A new day will come.
And when the sun shines, it will shines out the clearer.
Those were the stories that stayed with you... that meant something.
Even if you're too small to understand why.

But I think, I do understand.
I know now.
Folk in those stories had alot chances of turning back, only they didn't.
They kept going... because they were holding on to something.
But what were they holding on?
These are the things that lingers in my head....
that there's some goods in this world.
And it's worth fighting for.

~ Jason, 20th Feb 2005

Listening to: Winter, Again by Glay

Well, woke up to a very bad headache today. Do not know why and i even thinking of against going to school now but still did the opposite. Yesterday had this NS Medical Screening at CMPB Building and was surprised with the result. I was graded PES D because i had medical problems in hearing and heart and pending specialist review. Alot of things i did not realised so until i went to the checkup. Problems such as frequent headache, hand shaking, irregular heart with an extra echo and hearing problem on my right side. I was refer to Alexandra Hospital in April. Anyway, eventhough i do not want to go NS but what to do, i now looking forward to finish my NS in 2008 when i was free of worries. When i was there, i met one of my secondary school friend which we lost contact since leaving school. He was graded PES A which i am not surprised since he is good in athletic and stuff.

Been chatting more with Vanessa recently, well can say that she really liked one of my sec sch senior alot. She even went to create a book containing their memories and even put alot of songs that she feels that it suited her feelings for him. How i wished i got a girl that is so crazy for me but no such lucks :p.

Of recent days, the weather had been really warm. Saw a news that a forest fire happens in Chua Chu Kang or Yeo Chu Kang that equal to at least 15 Soccer Fields. And also those trees and grasses in my neighbourhood is dying. It had turned yellowish brown.

Finally, i'm still deeply in love with iPod mini & Lord of The Rings :p

I am my own GOD
I dictate how i live my life
I don't an invisible guy wanting me to pray 5 times a day
I don't want a dead guy on the cross asking to go to sunday prayers
I don't even believed that my destiny and fate is written on the heaven book
I live what i want, do what i want.....
I will create my own destiny and change my fate
No matter how hard it going to be.... I will take it by force if i have to!!!

Listening to: 童话 by 光良

It's been quite sometimes since i last blogged. I was busy or rather lazy...:P.... Anyway today is the Lunar New Year and i would wished all of you a Happy New Year!!! The past few days had been great, never fails to live a happy go lucky life. Anyway, been addicted to the above songs really a great song but love. Stressful life is just around the corner as i heard that their is a test at the end of this month. I had to rush through again since i never really listened in class...... Anyway, going to blog again soon.... Going to do my stuff :D