I got the below from a forum.... not sure why but i felt that it's so true, maybe this tells alot about me

Purple Sheep wish relationships to be gentle.
You are modest and quiet, and will not oppose to other people's opinions.
Nevertheless, you have strong ego, and your personal security comes before anything else.
You are always cautious, and think highly of objectivity.
You do not act subjectively.
You tend to lack adventurous heart.
Because you don't move around much, you are diligent and have a lively imagination.
You have a very observant eye, and are quick on changes that occur in the society.
You have wide vision, and are a well-read person and well informed person.
You have high aspirations, and have rather huge dreams.
You would put in great effort to make your dreams come true.
You tend to be obstinate about the things you think are right.
This may unbalance your relationship with the others.
Have flexible heart, and you will get unexpected success.
You think highly of obligations and duty, but you also have good sense of humor.
If you be more concerned about cooperativeness, you can definitely be able to gain popularity.
You are a well-informed man, so use that advantage as a backroom boy, and you will achieve great success.

As i'm typing this post, i'm not feeling very good. It's like a living hell here over in my head. I had so much heavy thoughts here and there. I do not want to take my medication because it makes me so much like a living zombie. Without any expressions or emotions just like what happened when i went to watch The Chronicles of Narnia last thursday. I don't feel anything when i supposed to laugh, and don't feel excited when i supposed to be as well. If i didn't not take it, i will feel like what i am feeling now. I felt really sad for no reason at all, i cried when i thought of something that happened over the last few weeks. I felt so empty eventhough everyone are having the festive mood over the weekend. This is probably the worst episode of my life now.

Since yesterday was christmas day, which is Jesus Christ birthday. Before falling asleep, i kept asking myself why did God create human. I couldn't thought of the real answer because all i could think of is God create human for malice and misery. Like Sauron creating his one ring, god put all his malice into human so we can suffered his sin he felt before creating us. That is the real reason why mankind will never find peace even in death. In this world, there are no such thing as Peace or Love. Just Malice, Cruelty and Misery.

When i was cutted on my face this morning while shaving, blood flows down my cheek. But i did not feel a single pain at all. All i do was staring at the mirror, looking at myself. Maybe "that" person on the mirror is not me anymore. When i look at "him", i saw a complete stranger. Someone that had too much trouble going through his head, too much heavy thoughts forcing their way out and too much problem to think off yet was unable to solve them or cannot runaway.

I had been sleeping lately too. Going into the dreamland is the best way to runaway from it all eventhough it's just for that few hours. The strange stuff that i dreamt off makes the whole sleep wonderful but the moment i opened my eyes, i had started to feel dull again. I think i'm starting to hallucinate as well. I always "see" my room door opened whenever it's closed and always had a feeling of someone watching me from the corner of my room eventhough i'm alone in my house.

I knew i am a sick dude, but this is what i feels now. Maybe i should really follows the doctor advise of taking the medication everytime instead of skipping it.

My Heartfelt Apology

Dear Jakob,

I had done alot of thinking over the past few hours since leaving her house about what happened over the past weeks. I want you to know that everything that I'm about to say is coming from me, who is not affected by bipolar disorder. I know that it will be very difficult for you to accept my apology, but I want you to think about our friendship as well.

The main reason i decided to write you this letter is because since met you, i felt that our friendship had become too valuable to lose over some silly actions by me. I feel that i could and should had handled it in a better way, but you never gave me a chance to speak or rather i had did not know what to say for that matter. I hope this post will give us both a chance to understand one another better.

I admit that I was wrong for telling people that you blocked me on msn and claiming that you hated me without hearing your opinion first, but the reason for that is because I had developed a false belief of you as well as some other stuffs due to the bipolar disorder that I'm having now and also I felt that i can coped with it already. I want you to know that I am very sorry and this is a special blog entry from me to you, saying that I'm Really Sorry!! I think that I have made the right decision writing this to you. Please reply to me as i really wanted to hear from you.

Yours' Sincerely,

Jason

A present issue concerning MOE's 5 day week?

I not sure how to say but a similar problem caused Loyang Secondary School's SJAB to close down. It has too affected other schools as well. Kudos to him to have the guts to take up the challenge and write to the newspaper regarding this issue.

The song playing on this blog now is called Don't Look Back in Anger by Oasis. One of the greatest song in the world now in my opinion.

Anyway, our nation had been under some negative limelight in the recent weeks. An vietnamese-australian was hanged last friday due to drug trafficking despite pleas from the australian government and the united nation. Well, all i can say is that i'm in for his execution. He had already been warned many times on the plane as well as at the airport that bringing drug into my country above 0.5gram brings a death penalty. Even below that amount, it already had a life sentence on the person if convicted. His defense was that he was helping his twin brother to pay off debt as well as his own. A very weak arguement in my opinion as there are alot of jobs in the world that he took up to pay off the debt. He had 396.2gram of heroin strapped into his body when he was caught which is about 25 times the amount that mandates a death sentence. At least our government stepped down a little because his mother was allowed to hug and touch him on the day before his execution. Normally, they only be allowed to speak to each other through the glass panel at the death row. I'm also surprised by the fact that in australia, the people over there actually holds a virgil for him. What the fuck, a virgil and memorial in a wide scale for a convicted person. I don't know what are they thinking and somemore, they claimed that they are against death penalty but are pushing for death for the bali bombers and terrorists all along. This really contradicted themselves and really made them looks like some cross-faced bastards. Also, some childish admin over at putfile.com actually blocked all singapore ip from using their service. Well you people are plain immature and i might be younger than you, but i still knew all my actions all along even i always act like an plain idiot all the time. Please, you are not the only one offering uploading and hosting service in the world and not the best as well. There are much better alternative such as savefile, rapidshare, yousendit or even youtube for us singaporean to use. Somemore your arguement is regarding our method, how about you donating a electric chair, some bullet or even manufacture dosage for the lethal injections for our use.

My personal opinion is that eventhough i too against capital punishment as man cannot play God. Only God himself can take away a person life because he is the creator of man. Just like the saying "I can make you, and i can break you as well." But laws are laws. Imagined a place without rules, i guessed it will not be an utopia as most people imagined. I'm happy that Singapore had a reputation of being a nanny state as it had made our lives more safer. Seldom had in any country that the people feels safe walking on the street late at night. We also had the lowest crime rate in the world, had one of the busiest port and airport in the world. Singapore is also one of the few countries in Asia that emerged from the ruin of World War 2 to become one of the most high tech country in the span of 30 years. We are considered a 1st world country in geography terms and i'm proud of that. Even our neighbour such as Malaysia is only considered inbetween 1st world and 3rd world. Can say being "2nd world" if that term exist. Anyway, if we really go and so called cancel his execution, i guessed alot of people in the deathrow will sure to push for the same rights. This cannot happened unless there is abolishment of death penalty. For your info, the hanging is the longshot method. Which is the most effective in term that it death occured only 3minutes after the trapdoor opened. Even the prisoner might not knew he was dead because the moment it opened, he is already unconcious. Some may claimed that he is moving or struggling and that is because of his spinal or muscle reaction. The most barbaric method is the electrocution method as some of them turned into "charcoal" because a simple jolt couldn't get them to die.

So the debate about him, australia, capital punishment are very meaningless. And putfile's admin, get a life. Suspending singaporean from using your service will not make any difference at all.